How I found healing

My experience with Western medicine more times than not left me feeling unheard and the same as when I walked in the door leaving with nothing but a canned response.  It wasn't until I finally had the courage to ask for help for my emotional health from my MD, who immediately wanted to prescribe medication, I realized something was missing. Something BIG. 

My childhood and adolescent traumas had officially carried into my adulthood (that's a whole 'nother blog post- I'll spare you this time). Years of living with anxiety had finally taken over paving the road of harboring guilt and lack of self worth well into my twenties.  I was feeling overwhelmed and unsure how to deal with these issues, let alone where the hell to start. 

To my advantage, I grew up with a very open and supportive family where holistic living was prevalent. My father being a manufacturing business owner turned yoga therapist/meditation enthusiast and my mother who took her health into her own hands via au naturale lifestyle. My mothers holistic health practitioner recommended I see a colleague of hers who practiced healing touch and guided imagery. I pondered the idea for a few weeks... unsure whether I was ready to be vulnerable and actually face my own stuff. SCARY. All I knew was, something needed to change.  

My first experience with self healing was unlike any other. The practitioner was warm and welcoming. She was compassionate. She listened to me. She asked me questions. She was patient. I felt safe. She provided a space I felt comfortable being raw and open in. And though I had been to traditional therapy throughout my life, this was different- we were going to do something about everything we just talked about. She then asked me what MY INTENTION was. What I WANTED. And that her role was to help guide and support ME during the process.

I left feeling so peaceful and relaxed. A feeling I couldn't remember the last time I felt. Lighter. I could breathe. My thoughts were calm. Feeling completely different than when I walked in the door. Over several sessions I was able to work through emotions I had never processed that were showing up physically in my body, setting myself free. I am learning self healing is ongoing. It will never stop, and I continue to deepen that journey. Working on myself and receiving sessions from other practitioners, I am reminded to trust I heal in my own time and own way. New things come up, lingering stuff surfaces; some feels good, some are more difficult to work through. Yet, the energy knows what I am ready for and when. 

I am exactly where I am supposed to be. 

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"NATURE DOES NOT HURRY YET EVERYTHING IS ACCOMPLISHED."

Happy Summer Solstice!

In sync with the changes nature is currently enduring, this day allows us to shed what no longer serves us so we can manifest our passions and higher purpose. It also represents the transition into darker days… So while we shed any “darkness”, we can bring more light with us to maintain balance as the days begin to shorten again.  During the Summer Solstice Grounding and Gratitude Self Healing Workshop I led this past Saturday, everyone participated in a short writing exercise.  After a grounding meditation the exercise was to write down something you are ready to let go of, something you are ready to release from your body, mind, and Higher Self. Whatever is naturally coming forward.  Anger? Stress? Fear? An experience or trauma that feels stuck? A pattern? Anything that is holding you back from experiencing growth, love, happiness, freedom, peace. Trusting that whatever comes up, is right.  

In honor of the longest day of the year today, I prepared to recycle the words and energy from the workshop students back into the universal energy flow. But first, I took some time this morning to do the exercise myself. I closed my eyes to ground myself, to come back home, to this present moment, acknowledging my heart center and my connection to the universe.  Setting my intention to bring forth what is ready to be released. Sitting in the morning sun, feeling the light and rising heat (it’s hot here this week!), I felt a light breeze. And for that moment I only felt, heard, smelled, and tasted that breeze. I felt it flowing through me, as it began stirring up what I had allowed to settle so deep within me. Words and images began to surface; I opened my eyes when I felt ready and was able to purge on paper what I was ready to let go of. What at this time was ready to be released, as it no longer served me.

Though I had something in mind already I had been thinking about wanting to let go of this past week, by connecting to myself even just for a moment, it allowed me to listen to my true inner Self to bring forth what is right at this time. The idea I had in my mind was general, something my conscious, ego driven self wanted to release, but by connecting to my entire being, what came up was an honest piece of it… a place to start. In a much gentler way, I was able to clarify what I needed to let go of. Instead of wanting to release a way of living as a whole, patterns I’ve had for as long as I can remember, I was able to allow what naturally was ready to come to the surface, to do so. One small action, something manageable, yet still profound and leading me toward my bigger goal. It made so much more sense. Which now consciously thinking about it feels so much better and resonates with me even more. My energy knows exactly what to do and what I’m ready for.  Our inner guidance is very honest and gentle. Patient. Not forcing, just guiding. It was such a humble reminder that shedding and change takes time… and isn’t that beautiful? There is no hurry to make changes.

“Nature doesn’t hurry, yet everything is accomplished.” – Lao Tzu

As a Healing and Wellness Practitioner, leading group workshops and private energy therapy sessions, it is my intention to do exactly this for each and every person. For me to hold a space allowing you to connect with yourself physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. To facilitate and help guide the energy in a heart centered way allowing you to heal in whatever way is intended at that time. Allowing you to bring your own stuck energy to the surface to be released while coming to your own realizations. The energy only does what you are ready for, and it knows exactly what to do.

Shanti.